Monday, December 14, 2015

A Young Lady's Dissenting View, G25, Ulama' Bashing, etc and etc.....




friends , dato and tansri,


by nabi's own admission, near the end of time,  we are 'gone cases'!
' oh my rabb, my nation, they dont listen to the qur'an ...' [ 26 : 25 ]

a dato paduka patient  of mine the other day confided and asked me,
'doc, what do you think? ...i have been asked to join g25. i am a pensioner. i want to contribute.'

' dato....i am relatively ignorant about the fekah of this. you should ask qualified people like dato mufti harusani etc and etc.
i am sure they are knowledgeable and god fearing enough to give you an honest answer, not necessary to be a politically correct one... 

but if you want my gut feeling,...... don't.
there are many ways people in your high position can contribute.
drawing 'lines in the sand' on important aqidah issues you are not familiar with at your age should not be one of them.
you dato' will be asked to explain in your later life
you will not at that time be able to hide behind any skirt or sarong!
you guys will all be naked! '

we move on to ayat 20 to 23.


dr nik



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Date:14/12/2015 1:41 PM (GMT+08:00)
To: drnikisahak@hotmail.com

Subject: FW: let us get back to basic......surah al furqan, ayat 20 to 23

I must say that I disagree with you, Dr Nik, about your advice to the Dato patient of yours with respect to him joining G25.
We are accountable for ALL of our actions and if retirees who can contribute to society are silent for fear of the after life then our society will remain ignorant. 
Surely ignorance and lettings things deteriorate in front of our eyes are worse in the eyes of the Almighty?


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From: Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah
Sent: Monday, December 14, 2015 4:50 PM
To: Re...@no.com.my
Subject: Re: let us get back to basic......surah al furqan, ayat 20 to 23


Re..,

the dato paduka friend and patient of mine can agree to have his name signed in between the dotted lines
i agree. 
but with a proviso. 
a very big proviso.... he must know his ' ugama'  well enough to ' draw lines in the sand '..
if he, like so many of us, are still stuck at the 'ablution phase' of his ugama, it would be better to remain quiet. 
for his own posterity.

matters touching on religion , one cannot just 'play ,play'.
earlier in the surah we touch on an ayat that says to the effect ' some clowns may think what they say are inconsequentials, but that inconsequentials  may land them in jahanam so deep that 50 years of brisk walking may not reach the top end or the bottom end '

jmho

dr nik



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From: Rej..@no.com.my
Sent: Monday, December 14, 2015 5:13 PM
To: drnikisahak@hotmail.com;
Subject: RE: let us get back to basic......surah al furqan, ayat 20 to 23


Hi Doc,

I understand that we of course should not be providing wrong information especially if we are not proficient in matters of agama and I agree totally with that. However, contribution to society of differing opinions is generally healthy and should be encouraged as I believe knowledge seeking should be a pillar of our approach to Islam which I personally think is missing from our society. We are too scared to ask the right questions to ulamas and scholars who at the end of the day are deeply entrenched within the corrupted system of government. Corruption is a sin which too many of us are blind to and I think this is plainly wrong. Our future generations of Malay muslims are more concerned about being covered but have no qualms in taking bribes, surely this is not what Islam is all about. If your patient is willing, he should be encouraged and not scared away. Will you sit by and let a Firaun take over our country?




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-------- Original message --------
From: Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah
Date:14/12/2015 6:12 PM (GMT+08:00)
To: rej...@no.com.my
Subject: Re: let us get back to basic......surah al furqan, ayat 20 to 23

i can agree with you in part ....

corruption is certainly the biggest issue in malaysia now and for decades. there is total lack of political will to overcome it. and why not....... the chinese survive on it. 
it is there in their blood. 
there is no word like 'corruption' or 'heaven' or 'hell' in their vocab. 

the political malays in amenu are addicted to it. 
from top way down to the bottom. 
if a leader'songlap' 2 billion rm something and can escape with it , we cannot blame the ulama. 
they have enough problems on their plate already, to address this problem.
we are all to be blamed.....typical 'malaysian tidakapathy'

malaysia is very lucky to have resilient, peace loving and resourcefull people.
in some other countries the leader would have by now being 'castrated' or something.
unfortunately we are run by  a whole bunch of morons, daylight robbers and pirates!
just look at the clowning going on in dewan raayat! 
we may have klcc and putrjaya with gleaming super structures but we are still bloody third world and too feudal for this 21st century, that i agree.

and i say it again , we deserve the shit we deserve., because we continue to vote these clowns in, year in and year out.........
even if i wake up my wife at 3 am , she will  mutter out, " amenu, amenu, amenu...oh darling, it is you! i was thinking of amenu.''. 
i think same thing also happening with my two sisters who are full professors in their own right.
" amenu..amenu amenu...zzzzzzzzzz"

we can forgive if a visitor from planet mars now goes off with the impression that planet earth is actually a green planet with  water and oxygen and everything but , zombies inhabiting it .....yes, if his spacecraft happened to land in this part of the word.
we are behaving like brain dead people. 
all of us , malaysians.

but to  get back right on track in this discussion to g25, , back to the problem of unnecessary ulama' bashing by all and sundry, by the very people who should know better.
try put yourself also in harrusani's et al shoes and you can appreciate their predicament.

take the case of the yoga fatwa several years back.
they can spend days discoursing on it , calling several interest groups  who have knowledge[ of course not necessarily calling clowns like zur...tan, who from her comment, one can surmise she know next to  nothing about her ugama, and our sisters in and out  islam etc etc and etc]
at the end of weeks of discourse they will have to come with a short advisory.......yes or no.
if they say no to yoga, they will bear the wrath of zur...tan, zaina apakahnamadiadah  et al. 
if thy say 'yes' to yoga they land up at the bottom most part of hell. even chaps like richard dawkins and his friend, christopher hichens, atheist numero uno, will be higher than them and staying in relative air conditioned 'rooms' compared to positions reserved for false scholars and errant muftis.
we have to pity them.
for the salaries they draw, their responsibilities are awesome.
they become punching bag for everyone.

the relative safety for my datuk paduka friend is to be non-commital.
jangan pandai2. 
leave this 'drawing of lines in the sand' to people who think they are ' kebal' to withstand '1000 degrees centigrade of temperature and willing to bounced deep into hell and on reaching the bottom which take another 70 years, will bounce back up , another 70 years of bouncing , to be faced and clobbered by malaikat guarding the entrance, bouncing to and fro in limbo'

what i describe can be literal, figurative, allegorical, elliptical or all the above at the same.
our life beyond this life is totally beyond us but, but it is more real than this one!
nabi onced told us , ' we are living in an allusion, when we die, only then,we face reality...', or something to that effect.

contribute to soceity by all mean , but when come to ugama.....leave it to the discourse of the ulama.
malaysia is definitely not going to chop off people's hand or stone people to death just about now or even in 200 years time, i am sure.
but when people like g25 raise a dissent,, they are opening up  islam to be debated by the gallery , 90 % of which are essentially secular and ignorant.
g25 should know better , since they claimed themselves to be muslims.
allahualam



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Date:14/12/2015 6:12 PM (GMT+08:00)
from: hkassim@yahoo.com, 
to :rej...@gmail.com, drnikisahak @hotmail.com
Subject: Re: let us get back to basic......surah al furqan



Doc,

Sorry to barge in but your discussion touched a raw nerve in me!

Talking of corruption I do agree that we Muslims should be concerned w ppl taking bribes and taking rakyaat's money. I thought G25 should be more concerned w corruption but what do you expect from ex-Govt service personnel. 

I heard some stupid Umno member (cant remember who) has the gall to suggest that "Allah puts Najib as our PM".  What stupidity..sorry to be judgmental but bodoh punya Melayu.




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from  : drnikisahak@hotmail.com
to : hkasm @yahoo.com


Marm,

first and foremost i agree with you 100 %.

as i have said earlier, malaysia is very lucky, its people are both resourceful, resilient and sabr....
if the country is to depend on its leaders, we would be long bankcrupt.
we are run by  a bunch of faceless morons, robbers and pirates!!

tak ada malu, maruah , and some would go further as to say, tak ada ugama...

to make matters worse, we have kangkong professors, kangkong journalists and columnists, and even recently, kangkong ulama' cum politicians from teganung, and even kangkong g25, kangkong igp and kangkong ag's office, very kangkong this last one.

like you i also wonder where have all the brilliant ex ambassadors, ex dg's , millionaires and billionaires and corporate wizards, gone to?
have they now in time of dire national need and dire emergency become just  like lizards and termites  disappearing into the wood work?
all here just only for the 'cari makan'?

shame on all of you guys!
expecting a tired old   retired ex statesman, octogenarian at that, and a twenty plus housewife from  langkawi to 'rock the boat', a boat full of shameless pirates and highwaymen. clowns who have no respect at all for rule of law, not an iota of  maruah and shame!

yes, friends, dato and tansri...shame on all of us!

no 'amal makruf and nahi mungkar'.
very sad.

dr nik

ps :

just as i was wondering how to connect the dot between tghh's official stand on publicly wanting to 'sleep with his previous enemies', and his now ailing divided party's future aspiration, doc rosli of harakah suddenly walked into my consultation room with his mrs.


'doc rosli, i cannot help but think that,  indeed your boss is not  in his early alzheimers....and if you can allow me to be generous , i propose tghh is more 'intelligent' and wise than what  the young turks in his  party  are willing to consider.

it is possible that tghh is looking beyond najib, beyond 'time'. he is probably thinking that amenu may not sustain for much longer these ludicrous antics  from their numero uno, that some bright young spark within the party will say enough is enough, and take the challenge.....ts my , from the look of it ,does not seem to have the wit and the brain power to sustain a challenge. he does not look clever so far, in all his actions. it has to be someone else.'

" yes, it is possible doc nik...my boss thinking that way..come to think about it it sounds plausible! "

' but doc rosli, there is a proviso in this line of thinking....,it assumes amenu can self correct itself. to me this look like an impossible gargantuan task. the ludicrity now is bordering lunacy.
but to be generous again to your boss, it would not be entirely his fault. even our nabi made some strategic mistake in posr badr war when he agreed with the consenses, first put forward by abu bakr, in bartering the 70 prisoners of  war for cash. umar just wanted them to be put in a hole in the ground and be collectively  burned alive.......i think doc rosli, you guys in pas has underated tghh greatly. that old man trust his 'fihrasat'.

even if his ijtihad is wrong, we all have to look at the other side of the equation........ i have a feeling he did not trust his young turks having the brain power to contain the bludgeoning dap within pakatan......and the pkr boys are too secular to even help pas here.....at the end of the day it may not be to the ummah's advantage...'

" doc nik, you should be in politics.. "

' no doc rosli, in my fihrasat, it would be more difficult to go to jannah as a politician. i would rather be rather just sell panadol as i am doing now'.

" by the way doc, how is my heart and diabetes...? " 

' excellent doc...your hbaic , i give Aplus today!'













Sunday, November 22, 2015

Paris Massacre, Anger and Resentment....










Friends, Dato and Tansri,

I was surfing the net the other day quietly by myself in one corner in the doctor's common room at my hospital  while waiting for an angioplasty case to be ready in the operation thearte when Dr Liew NC , a consultant vascular surgeon, a born again christian, approached me and asked,

"Nik, why for god's sake are all these young Muslims killing themselves and innocent people in Europe?'
I took a deep breath and pondered:

Doc Liew,

I can be academic and a wee bit untruthful and give you a whole load of rubbish as what Prof Bernard Lewis, doyen of western orientalism, gave some , 20 years back  to  Bush Senior,[ and later 15, to Bush Junior ] citing history right from the Spanish inquisition up to theOttomans emasculation in Europe and the subsequent domination of the Muslim hinterland by the former 'crusaders'I think that is a whole load of rubbish but rubbish enough to provide  Bush senior and later Bush Junior and his British poodle, Mr Anthony Blair,  the intellectual and moral munitions to go to war in Afghanistan and Iraq.
[  http://www.theatlantic.com/past/issues/90sep/rage.htm  ]

These young muslims , they are not schooled and their memories are quite short. So i will give the short but more honest answer to you.

What they are doing is certainly not Islam. 
Islam is submission to the One and Only, and in Islam if you kill a human being, be it Muslim or non Muslim, without rhyme or reason, it is a crime against the whole of humanity.
You will be dumped in to HELL for eternity.
No decent Muslim, learned or unlearned, ever wish this to happen!

But put yourselves in the position of a typical Muslim youth in Paris or Brussel let us say, or even a youth in Baghdad,Libya , or now even in  Yemen. Even in Chechnya for that matter.
if you grow up in Baghdad, during Saddam's time, time was hard but you did not have to live in your own shit. Your father can go to work in the market place and he could bring  some money home for bread and butter.
In  post-Bush's Baghdad, you have no electricity, no proper sewarage system, no proper running water and you live practically where you shit. Your dad and uncles and cousins got their heads head blown off in the market place. The Shia- Sunni querrel got worse.

Between  the 2 Iraq wars several hundred thousands children died from hunger from sanctions. 
After the wars another 1 million died, countless lost their homes. You saw and continue to see your cousins, your brothers and sisters and your children got blown off. 
There is no future.
And above all you see America and Europe got off scotts free!
Tony Blair , General Powell and Bush Junior ,you see , are still free and 'unrepentant' despite all facts pointing to them as criminals against humanity. 

Now let us move away from Iraq to the rest of the Muslim hinterland: Tunisia, Libya, Algeria, Yemen , Syria and for that matter even Egypt. Wherever the white Caucasian race have an interest, they have their dirty hands in . 
One can be guaranteed of absolute chaos and mayhem.
If it is not a case of war, even the democratically elected President Morsi was 'demolished' via Western complicity etc etc and etc.

What are these young people  supposed  to do? Shake their hands and say thank you?
And lately , thanks to Saudi , Israel, America and also Europe's complicity, we have the people of Syria being  weaponized to the teeth with the noble intention of bringing down Assad.

There are now currently 1.5 billion Muslims across the globe.
On the extreme right you have the sufis or 'people of the ihsan', whose intention are to 'walk this earth as peacefully as possible , not even wanting to harm a red  ant or even a rat'. i like them very much.

in the middle you have the  great big  silent majority, a motley of nominal Muslims and non nominal Muslims: Sunni  and Shia ; to the extreme left you have 30 million or so Wahabis and Salafis, none of them are as mad and jihadist oriented as what Bernard Lewis and John Exposito et al wanted the world to perceived of them.

You throw in 1 to 2 million Muslims dying of collateral damage from 1000's and  1000's sorties of cruise missiles and aerial bombing , over decades,  not counting hundreds of thousands of drones raining down on Muslim hinterland in the last decade.
If all these can just radicalize just 0.1 % from the extreme left of the spectrum, you have at least 15 million radicals just waiting to die for their religion.

The overriding sentiment amongst ulama  worth his salt, Shia or Sunni, liberal or conservative, is that none of them will  100 % negate jihad as a last bid defensive mechanism open to ordinary Muslims. If he does, he is no ulama.
A great majority will say the present content on which suicide bombing are carried on is definitely 'non Islamic'. Point taken, fullstop.

2 million have died at their hands, is a definitive testimony of that.
Bush, Blair and General Powell are still free running around selling their ware when they should actually be behind bars at The Hague as WAR CRIMINALS!

There is no papacy in Islam to whom one can look up to for guidance.
Guidance is between the individuals and God Himself . 
The scholars only can pontificate and advise.
Islam is a personal and 'democratic' religion, from this perspective
It is all between you and God!'

To these young people, at the end of the day, they ask their 'hearts'
All is fair in war and peace.
'You kill my mothers, uncles and children and cousins, does not matter where, I kill yours'

and to complicate the scenario further, the definition of 'cousin' or 'brother' in islam is wide. 
he could be in palestine, chechnya or kabul!

Now, if one allow Mc Cain or Putin  or that mad chap, Donald Trump, [  who is currently getting madder and madder as the weeks and days goes on, ] their ways, they would  go on to flatten the Levant [ greater Syria and Iraq ]  with nuke and dirty bombs in order  to flush out ISIS. 

They have the logistics and the ordinance to do just that. The PR job and rationale can be organized later very easily.

CNN, Aljazira and BBC can help in making this plan ' palatable ' for the rest of the watching world. 
world public opinion is malleable and a forever moving goal posts!

Congratulations!
And  I would be the first to congratulate them for being moronic.
  
In the process,if by conservative estimate, they could just manage to radicalized 10 % of the Muslim body, the world at large have to deal with 150 millions future jihadists, all well spread out across the globe.
Even the sufis may  be radicalized. 
No one can guarantee there will be no snow ball effect.

again i say congratulations to them. 
go ahead.

The ball is actually in Obama's , Hollande's, Putin's and Cameron's feet.
even hillary.
If they think they can manage to win against 150 million potential jihadis, 

congatulations!!
Go ahead!
They are most welcomed!

Doc Liew,

Like Iraq before, no one, and I stress again, NO ONE, is interested in the root cause.
The killing field on both side will increase because all players have lost their sanity.
This is a recipe for World War 3, if current world leaders are not careful!

america, russia  may have MAD.
but in this 21st century MAD is almost totally inconsequential.
if YOU radicalise 1.6 billion muslims, that is the mother of all MADNESS!

This is not an ideal world and this is the reality all of us, peace loving people of the world, have to face.

THINK

dr nik

' hasbunallah wani' mal Wakeel '...suffice for Allah, HE is al Wakeel

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Three Stations..........


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UK2v-0IBqk


Friends, Dato and Tansri,

Shaykh Muhammad Ninowy of Madina Institute, Duluth , USA, I count him as one of my many still living 'tok guru', along with the others:
Ustaz Lokman , a tassauf inclined ustaz of Subang Jaya ,  Shaykh Moktar al Magrhoui of Morocco, Shaykh Hamza Yusuf of USA and Shaykh Muhammad al Yacoubi of Syria. Fethullah Gullen of Turkey  and  assoc Prof T.J Winter aka Shaykh Abdal Hakim Murad are inspirational figures in my life.

My other 'tok gurus' from whom I derive pleasure reading them such as al Ghazali , Shaykh Abdal Qadir al Jilani [ His 'Sublime Revelation' and 'Futuh al Ghaib' are superb! ],Sayyid Qutb, Hamka, TGNA etc and etc, they have all gone to be in the realm of the beloved.


Ninowy says, when you worship, try hard not to notice your worship. instead, try to see and get close to the worshipped....
That in a short sentence actually summarised the whole  aim of our ibadah: to be close to Allah, fullstop.
He discusses 3 stations for  travelers:

The beginners start with istiqamah of amal...this forms the great majority of us , myself included

The middle people, rare in numbers, are elevated to istiqamah of hal
This group gravitates in the presence of allah by HIS invitation.

The third group, rarer and more distilled, are in continuous awe with the presence of allah without effort, 24/7.
HE is in love with them and they, HIM
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People who  are destined to'fly over the sirat' and enter 'Jannah without accounting'!


dr nik howk


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From: h-51
Sent: Friday, November 13, 2015 2:55 AM
To: Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah
Subject: Re: Fw: siratul mustakim.....3 stations.

dr nik,


your accent seemed to me to be on 'volume'.
i heard shaykh ninowy very well.
he says moderation ., moderation and moderation.
Its quality more than quantity. 

h

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Fw: siratul mustakim.....3 stations.



Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah
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Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah ;

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From: Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah

puan ,

you are  very right on the spot there.
in the beginning, yes. , start slowly, slowly, then increase slowly slowly.
' it is not quantity verses quality, oftentimes at the high end it is both quantity as well as quality', if you read the shaykh carefully in between the lines
people in the 3rd station sleeps with zikr and wake up in zikr.
they are the elite of the elites

i likened zikr and remembrance of allah, from my own experience in picking up a hobby like horse riding.
when you get started, 15 minutes on the horse is like eternity: you have to concentrate on balance and  control.
all your muscles tensed up.
and you remember the discomfort and ache  and talked about it for days.

then you increase , slowly until even 2 hours of outride give you immense pleasure.
no more talk.
when you reach the third station, even a 160 kilometre ride in 15 hours is pleasurable and PAIN of course.
it is like a love affair. pain and pleasure admixed together

a love affair with allah is also both pleasurable and PAIN.
you are often tested
that is what the good shaykh is alluding to when he described the third station.
allahualam.



dr nik howk
http://drnikisahak.blogspot.my/2014/11/the-horse-whisperer.html









Thursday, October 29, 2015

Truncated Lives....






Prof,

We met just now in the evening along the hospital corridor.
You told me your cancer has recurred. You must have been in a state of shock at 1st impact, I am sure.
One hour earlier I visited a friend of mine with severe dilated congestive cardiomyopathy,  a serious heart failure condition. He, at best only have  'X' days to live, in my estimation, only on statistical ground.

All of us only have 'X' days   to live technically speaking, only that most of us take for granted that that 'X' days  is automatically translated as being, 15 to 20 years!!

Which bring me to an anecdote which i can recall in my clinic the other day. A mak chik in her late 70's asked me for sleeping pills to cure her insomnia. I retorted, much to the happiness of he accompanying son, that, " Mak Haji, at your age and mine, not being able to sleep is a blessing!.....we have been sleeping much too long all our lives! Do the tahajjud, the hajat and the tasbeeh......and if you dont find pleasure in this , watch cnn or aljazira...".

Life is, just at best, a number of measured, already actuated, already accounted for, and precalculated, number of breaths. If you are apportioned a total of 'Z' breaths in your lifetime and you have reached your sixth decades and three and used already 'Y' number of breath, you have only ' Z - Y ' breaths left!
Simple arithmetic we all choose to forget.

I was woken up at 2 am  just now still thinking what practical advice I could offer both of you guys apart from advising both of you to get the best technological and medical treatment that 2015 has to offer. 

Actually off the cuff, I would have blurted it out right away in the hospital corridor to you but political correctness and politeness prevented me from doing so.

I find myself still stuck to a famous tabi'in, Hasan al Basri's advisory on life, his trilogy of :

1. Solat [ in your situation, 'extreme situation' requires 'extreme measures',throw in  daily Tahajjud, Tasbeeh , Taubat , Israq and Dhuha as well....they are therapeutic. And if you want to add a wee bit of stevia, daily hajat prayer will not harm you. That is DOA, also another form of Zikrullah ]

2. Daily dose of Qu'ran [ with some understanding, would be infinitely better ]. The accent is on daily. Does not matter the size of the dose. Like low dose aspirin, which is in vogue nowadays, daily dose of Qur'an, even in small quantity, is effective. The smaller the dose, the bigger the reflection.

3. And thirdly,Zikr [ lots and lots of it ]

Especially Zikr. 24 hours of Zikr would not make one mad. It is the antidote and panacea of all ills.
And one more thing, and I am not trying to be better than Hasan here.
Lots of taubatan nasuha.
Taubatan nasuha is part of Zikr thus Hasan al Basri sticked to his trilogy.

Just sleep on this thot:
Allah promised the new Muslim revert to erase all his sins if he says ' laila haillallah...' and if that revert dies that day, he is promised automatic Jannah!
And here we are , 50, 60 years being nominal Muslims, with our occasional solat, zikr and all......
You have your Solat, and your Qu'ran and your Zikr and lots  and lots of Taubat.....albeit quite late in life.
So what?
You are OK.
Insyaallah.

Dr Nik

[ Shaykh Hamza Yusuf Hanson on Zikr ]


[ Shaykh Muhammad al Yacoubi ]


[ Shaykh Muhammad al Ninowy.....Levels of Zikr ]


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Date: Sat, 31 Oct 2015 03:14:32 +0800
Subject: Re: truncated lives.......
From: nj@gmail.com
To: drnikisahak@hotmail.com

Dear Dr Nik
Thank you for the guidance to preparing myself to face the inevitable reality. My meeting with you that Wednesday was part of His Grand plan. I have been going to the hospital for consultations with the oncologist many times but never have i crossed path with you before. But that very day when I received my blood results of the cancer marker God had willed it for me to meet you for a purpose. 
When you  personally emailed your thoughts and advice to me,  it made me reflect further the purpose of that meeting. Every word you said aptly describe  the state of my soul and my health condition. Your  response to my disappointment(which may be more obvious to you than anybody else) is reflected further in your email. Such a response is just what I needed and which I didnt even realise. Most friends who knew abt my recent progress would give me  standard responses such as "take care of yourself" and "have faith in the Almighty." Masha Allah I shouldn't complain for those are encouraging phrases to keep one strong in the face of life's trials. I thank God for such friends. But your response contains the message which I have been thinking about a lot lately.  
The time given to me by God is measured. No one knows when Allah SWT will call us back from this world. My illness is actually an opportunity, not an end. I ask: Have I completed my mission in life? Have I done my best to please God? But you are certainly right--- move on, give yourself a chance by preparing for the inevitable. Dont waste anymore time. The time is measured.
 What is important--act fast before the time comes. Thank you Dr Nik. I have shared your writing with close friends. They said masha Allah it is a reminder for those who forget and need to be reminded of the measured life by God and of the Day that we will all face, that is, to answer for all our deeds. I'm most grateful to Allah SWT for giving me the chance to  meet you on that day. May Allah continue to have mercy on us.

With respect
Nj

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On 5 Nov 2015 07:53, "Nik Isahak Wan Abdullah" <drnikisahak@hotmail.com> wrote:



Prof,

tq and I hope you don't mind if i publish your response under a pseudonym of course, for general 'kebaikan bersama' .
But if you have any reservation i would not.

There are ways and ways to occupying  oneself in HIS remembrance.
Science based individuals like you and myself will put it as 'unlimited permutations and combinations'.

But here is just one way on how you might want to start your day, if you may allow me to bore you.
Hopefully it would just serve as a guide and you may want to personalize it to your favourite one, adding here and 'minusing' there, as you get better and better in your remembrance , as you go along the path.
[     https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvEf5l2cuoo  ]

I assume here you are still having your work and career to content with, but this suggestion is still  very 'dowable ', even if you are working fulltime. You just need to make some adjustment to how you go about in your waking hours day .

Try to keep your night in remembrance and this require some change in your sleeping pattern ie sleep early, say after isyak and wake up at 3 or 4 am, 1 to 2 hours before subuh daily.
This is the best hours. Having a short nap post Zohor would certainly help.

Start your qiam with astagfirullah , say 30, 40, of your favourite ones, short one will do.   
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xSoO0OCRHk  ].  
Then do a cycle or two or three of tahajjud.
Another 30 to 40 astagfirullah, followed by a cycle of tasbeeh prayer of 4 rakaats. This is specially illuminating.
Punctuated again by another cycle of astagfirullah.

Followed by a cycle or two cycles hajat prayers.
My favourite is, when I have the time, to do 2 cycles of two rakaat each, with 99 kulhuawallah total, 9 in the 1st rakaat, 20 in the second. 30 in the 1st rakaat of the second cycle followed by 40 in the second rakaat. 99 kulhuallah in all. Don't ask me where I learn it. It was years back from a 'Tok guru', I have forgotten his name.

Purists may have 'some ' reservations about both hajat and tasbeeh prayers but we do not want to go into debates on this. There are scholars who strongly recommend it and there are cynics who say, NO! Nabi did not do it. [ as if they were there during Nabi's time! ]. If they want to remain at their level  and feel at home with it, well and good. This is a free country.

After the tahajjud, the lenghty tasbih and the 99 kulhuallah hajat, it is now ' ripe  to open your heart's content to HIM and ask. Ask forgiveness....long life..health..and most importantly, husnul khatimah.

Remember you are in the realm of  the Sultan of the sultans! 
Do your two rakaat taubat prayer. More doa yet again while in sajadah position. Cry if you have too!....it would be good for you.

Polish off with your witr.

It  may be possible that you would be just in time for your subuh prayer.
otherwise 'wax and polish' all these prayers and doa with a hundred selawat on the nabi and then followed by subuh.

Post subuh, do your usual tahmid and tasbih.
Followed by fatihah 7x, an nas 7x, al falah 7x, kulhuwallah 7x, kulia 7x, kursi 7x, and the last 3 ayats of al baqarah 7x.
That would bring you to solat israq.

During the rest of the day do your tasbih, tahlil and tasmid as and when you feel your are 'witnessing' events around you unfolding right in front of your mind's eyes.
and lots of ' laila haillah huwah dahu lasyari kallah lahul mulku walahul hamdu wahuwa ala kulli syaiin qadir'

They say  your abode in jannah is a'vast empty  plain for miles and miles as far as the eyes can see' and for the owner to fill it with 'trees, garden  and a palatial home', the above two  forms of zikr will do the job!
Allahualam.
Have a wonderful journey experimenting  and 'enjoying' with your zikr.

Prof, 

Very rarely we find ourselves  sandwiched  in between the lion and the deep blue sea and unable to change the 'parameters' on the ground. You are in that rare position now.
I always believe that , even if one cannot change the paradigm  and the parameters on the ground, insyaallah, with the right attitude and focus, one can change the paradigm in one's qalb.
And in the final analysis, that is all that matters!

Since when we go to meet HIM, it is all at HIS pleasure and grace, not what we do. HE is after all al Rahman and al Rahim.

Yours sincerely,


dr nik

ps : I have omitted the use of HIS 99 beautiful names. These are for the ' specialists from amongst us 'and require a tok guru to guide you. I am just a novice. But from what I heard and read, reciting 'ya Salam, ya Salam...' or ' ya Latiff, ya Latiff...' any number of time would be good for you.


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from Nj :

Not at all Doc. 

Go ahead (even with my name on it). I'm accountable for what I wrote. You certainly woke me up and many others who I shared your writing with. I am admitted in hospital now but I doing fine alhamdullilah. 
Thank you  so much Dr Nik. May Allah SWT include you among those He is please with and reward you with Jannatul Firdauz Aamiin.
Wassalam
Nj







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